《天冷就回来》
我刚刚看了这出戏。 我好喜欢里头的歌曲。都是一些我小时候常听的歌。
虽然演员的演技有点争议，可是故事内容和曲子却深深扣住那些在80年代以前出生的人们。
故事牵扯到失去爱人的滋味，从悲痛到振作，一人孤单离乡背井到海外试图拼出自己的梦，爱与梦和现实的挣扎，住在海外的人对故乡的思念，强逼自己的下一代记住他们根，，同性恋的束缚，还有最后当你觉得冷了，想回到以前时发现。。。

每一次看舞台剧都会爱上台上的男女主角，除了这一次。。。

Crying?!
You didn't it see wrongly. I just throw my white letter 2 weeks ago. I really hate her.... I keep giving myself more and more excuses to stay in the school; Maybe the boss comes in the school will have another chance to start all over again, maybe new colleagues will give the school a brand new culture, maybe my friend who just came in will be the new motivation injection for me, maybe, maybe and maybe...

Now everything comes to an end. After the 1st meeting with her, I knew my white letter is on progress. Don't know is 命中安排还是命运愚弄，之前所有的 “如果” 都变成了句号。At the moment, the letter was given to her, she totally ignored me, as if she already expected my resignation. Walking out of her room, I felt relieve. Being political? commercial working style? 打心里战术？sorry I can't work under in that kinda of environment.

Last Monday, I break the news to my class student. As i know I have to Talk them through about my departure. I thought they will not really understand and forget soon after I leave, but immediately after I announced, 1 child said this " u leaving like the other teachers and friends, not coming back anymore?"
I felt devastated to let them go through this.

In the same week, children start giving me drawings drew by them and some comments.
Child A - Everyone I love stay in my house, Mommy, Daddy and Gou Gou. So I draw a lot a lot of houses for you.
Child B - Why must you go other school to teach? can you bring me along?
Child C's Mom - My son went back and said you are leaving, he so going to miss you.
Child D's Mom - Are you leaving soon? my daughter said Miss Low is leaving, the school is so sad, She is so sad, She don't want to go to school anymore.
Child E - Can you stay? I love you to teach me, I don't want you to go.
Child F - I draw myself for you, so you will see me everyday. can you draw yourself for me?
Child G's Mom - You going for holiday? My daughter said you are going for a very very very long holiday. wouldn't be coming back for very very very long.
( Everytime I take leave I always tell them i am going holiday in other country. So will not be taking care of them for a few days, other teacher will take over them.)
Child F - I don't want to eat the sweet, I want to keep it, because I will not see you anymore.

More and more and more..........As a teacher teaching, taking care of them for almost one and half years... i really going going to miss them so much.

Last Friday, my ex-boss messaged me, she asked "Are you okay? Do take care of yourself, it is part and parcel of life." I can't hold it anymore.... i just burst into tears. I have never been crying so badly since primary.
(starts tearing again................)

I felt like i am breaking up a relationship.... Really going thru trama...
I used to see them growing up, graduate... but now i will miss it.... miss it all. Their faces, their little moves will gradually blur and fade off as i start to get busy with new school.

I know i am going to a new School i should put it down and get myself prepared for the new challenges ahead. I know life will be very different. Children over the new school, i will only spend 3 hours with them, the bonding will be different, the love given will be different. More academic, less personal interaction.
I will slowly get used to it, slowly become more driven by academic. but I will still always missed those days, spending 8 to 10 hours a day with the same children.... talk nonsense, scolding them, raising voice in order to catch their attention.....

Don't worry, I will get myself preapre and ready when the new job starts...